*Crawls Into A Hole*

[jackofallgeeks]

Today has thus far generally sucked.

After English, me and Nina were talking and she (half-jokingly?) said she'd always had a low opinon of me. We're friends and all, and we kept talking after than note, but it still does hurt some.

At lunch I wanted to put my head on Lauren's shoulder. I was tried, and think, and lord knows I've been lonely this month...but, of course, you can't just cuddle with your friends. It looks weird, people think things.

This morning I decided I didn't want to go to Tennly tonight with Jack - I'm just not up for it. A guy's got a right to not want to go out, dam it. When I told Jack, he was a bit upset, and tried to convince me to go. When I refused, he kinda laughed and made a remark about how I'm always complaining that I need to get out more. I said that stung and he said, "No, you want to know what stings....?" Then, as we parted ways, he said "Have a miserable day." Jack never says anything mean. Ever. Where I would cuss at someone, Jack's the type who says "God Bless you." He wants to be a priest, and he's a really nice guy. But today he was full of venom. I feel really miserable.

I'm mad, but I donno if I'm mad at him, or me.
Or both.

Work in 1/2 an hour. That's going to suck.

Comments

>hugs<

[daisysweet.livejournal.com]

Why not cuddle with friends? Besides. Putting your head on someone's shoulder isn't cuddling. That's affection, touch, love and friendship. If I could count all the times it made me feel great that my friends felt they could lay all over me (... even if they DID take to calling me a PILLOW... ~__~;;) ... I'd have a lot of great happy moments to look back on, you know? Now that I don't have it, I miss it like CRAZY.

Anyway..., consider this a hug from California. Think positive thoughts, Andrew, and don't let other people having bad days (Jack) get you down. Chances are he didn't mean to be so out of line.

[starlight1184.livejournal.com]

You can so cuddle with friends! I am all for cuddling with friends!

Well... I don't know why anyone would have a low opinion of you, so thats just weird. And with Jack, it sounds like he was having a bad day to... and had to take it out on someone. Everyone has bad days... some people are just lucky and don't get them as often. Damn them. ;-)

Hope you feel better darlin. Cheer up!

(Huggles)...

[serenabuny.livejournal.com]

I hope talking to me made you feel better, ne? And have fun at your uh... party? ^_^;;;... And don't kill Jack on the way...

Yes, well....

[jackofallgeeks.livejournal.com]

Oh, I would love to cuddle with friend. You have NO idea - they're all cute, too. ^^
But... ::shrugs:: There's something there I'm not comfortable with, I guess... ><;; Maybe the fact that I would WANT to cuddle with them is a deterent - ie, anything someone might think wouldn't be so far from the truth...
But I've been thinking, and I suppose I should throw causion to the wind, in this case at least. If people get used to you being a touchy-feely kinda guy, it won't be such a big deal, right?
Riiiiiiight.

I appreciate you're e-hug (if you will), and i'm sure he didn't mean to be such a...not nice word, but I also think I was the major cause of his having a bad day, so...

The Low Opinion....

[jackofallgeeks.livejournal.com]

As far as that goes, when I first met Nina last semester, it was in the context of me an Aaron more or less hitting on her (more Aaron and less me) because she's a rare find - a female Engineer. trust me, that's an odd bird. Anyways, I don't honestly think she has a low opinion of me, but I did confess to being a slacker (yeah, like she's really the scholar among us) and she is one of a very small number of girls that I've been aware that I was hitting on them, so I know she's gotta be catching it. And she's got a boyfriend (not that it'd ever stop me...), so...

^___^

[jackofallgeeks.livejournal.com]

Turns out the guy I was supposed to follow to the place never showed up, so I have showered and changed, and plan on simply relaxing this night. And my grandparents are outta town this weekend, so while that means I needa eat at North, it also means that I'll have tomarrow and Sunday night to unwind, to. This could be a good thing.