John Noble (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
jackofallgeeks) wrote2006-02-27 01:20 pm
jackofallgeeks) wrote2006-02-27 01:20 pm
Entry tags:
(no subject)
I hurt.
I don't understand why these girls ignore me.
I don't understand why they don't even give me a chance.
I don't ask for much, just to love and be loved, and they haven't even stayed around long enough for me to ask that.
I'm still kicking myself about Meghan, and you can sit there and tell me that she was wrong for me, but you've never known her. There's more to her than the "you can't have famale friends" bit, and there's more to *that* than you know. She's seeing someone else now, and still my friend, so she can't have meant what it seems she said. And even at that, I'd rather err on the side of "Too Catholic" or "Too Traditional" or "Too Conservative" than the alternative ("Not Catholic Enough," et cetera).
And maybe there's something to what everyone else says; my grandparents recently said that Suzannah was "too serious" for me, and maybe they're right. They didn't know her, but people seem to know me better than I do.
It's frustrating to find a girl who's so much what I'm looking for, but who isn't interested in me. And it's just as frustrating (though marginally easier to deal with) to find a girl who's interested in me, but really isn't anything that I'm looking for.
I'm just lonely.
I don't understand why these girls ignore me.
I don't understand why they don't even give me a chance.
I don't ask for much, just to love and be loved, and they haven't even stayed around long enough for me to ask that.
I'm still kicking myself about Meghan, and you can sit there and tell me that she was wrong for me, but you've never known her. There's more to her than the "you can't have famale friends" bit, and there's more to *that* than you know. She's seeing someone else now, and still my friend, so she can't have meant what it seems she said. And even at that, I'd rather err on the side of "Too Catholic" or "Too Traditional" or "Too Conservative" than the alternative ("Not Catholic Enough," et cetera).
And maybe there's something to what everyone else says; my grandparents recently said that Suzannah was "too serious" for me, and maybe they're right. They didn't know her, but people seem to know me better than I do.
It's frustrating to find a girl who's so much what I'm looking for, but who isn't interested in me. And it's just as frustrating (though marginally easier to deal with) to find a girl who's interested in me, but really isn't anything that I'm looking for.
I'm just lonely.
no subject
I know someone who thinks of you fondly. Of course, it's complicated, but...well, it might bring a smile, at the least. I'll tell you sometime.
no subject
I'd be interested to hear, even just for the smile.
The wost bit is, I know I'm a likable guy. Just this weekend (which I've yet to post about), my parents were told "he's really easy to like." I've never really had trouble making friends, even for all my talk of being shy. But these girls aren't even giving me a chance, and I don't get it.
And as ever, I'm an idiot, and I never seem to want the ones who want me, for one reason or another. I think I can probably name at least one girl every year for the last eight years who was interested in me, but I wasn't interested in her. And three out of four times, I'm still kicking myself for it...