When the stars go blue...

[jackofallgeeks]

Uhn, feeling really unmotivated today.
Not feverish, I'm over that this morning, but just... The only reason I got out of bed this morning was from rote mechanical habit. I'm on autopilot. I have no motivation.

I'm so unmotivated, I almost don't even feel like writing this post about how unmotivated I feel.

In the last couple days, I've been feeling a little down. Something's been bothering me, and I can't really put my finger on it. Not really, anyways. I'm starting to sound like I did a year ago, I think...

As near as I can tell... There's just a bunch of things I have to say, but I "can't" say them, because I don't want to... cause the effect it would have on people, or something. And it's not just one thing, either, but a bunch of things which, I fear, would negatively affect a bunch of people. And so I sit here in silence, and as always, I think the silence is what's hurting.

I don't believe anyone is selfish out of cruelty.

On impulse, I was just about to erase this all.
I'll post it now, as I can't think of anymore to say.

Comments

[surichan.livejournal.com]

What's up?

[jackofallgeeks.livejournal.com]

-laughs-
That question was suitably vague.  ^_^;;
Care to expand on what it is your asking?

[surichan.livejournal.com]

No more vague than you, dearheart. ::smiles:: I'm attempting, in my own little way, to probe deeper into what it is that's bothering you.

[jackofallgeeks.livejournal.com]

Touche!
I suppose you're right though.
And actually, you're mighty word-probe has suceeded, I think, though you're not aware of it yet. If I can remember when I get out of the pffice, I'll post something about it...

Oh, come on...you're Satan.

[surichan.livejournal.com]

Ooh, goodie! It worked, it worked!! I go now for an encore to prove that black is white and get run over at the next zebra crossing.

Seriously, though, I'm interested to see what's troubling the Baka-Neko today.

[jackofallgeeks.livejournal.com]

Black is white...?

I'm interested to see what's troubling the Baka-Neko today.
-smiles- That makes two of us. We'll se if I can remember what I have to say when I have the time to say it. Or something.

Randomly...

[jackofallgeeks.livejournal.com]

Just strolled by your info page...

"All my other fanfiction can be found in my Memories, if you care to take a gander. Or a goose. Or a gosling. I'm shutting up now."

I giggle insanely.

[surichan.livejournal.com]

::laughs:: I didn't think anyone had ever noticed that. No one's ever commented on it before.

[jackofallgeeks.livejournal.com]

Hee hee hee. Yes, I liked it muchly. It was very clever, much more clever than anything I have on my info. I don't think people generaly read info pages, though. It's a shame.

[surichan.livejournal.com]

I always try to read them, personally. I think they're fun.

...where do you go when you're lonely?...

[tzohekiti.livejournal.com]

If you have to say them, say them.
We are your friends, we don't want you to be a masicist.
So bite the bullet, and spit it out. Ok?
*nuzzle*

[violetmay.livejournal.com]

*points to the comment above me* Yep.

[mordainlove.livejournal.com]

what's the matter, dearest? ::nudge:: one might be said that talking would help. or so said a wise boy to ME on several different days. ::smile::

[jackofallgeeks.livejournal.com]

Just a little stressed, I think. I donno. I'm feeling alot better, and made a post Here (http://www.livejournal.com/users/roliasnoom/266108.html) which goies intoi it a bit more. But only a bit, I think...