When the stars go blue...

[jackofallgeeks]

Uhn, feeling really unmotivated today.
Not feverish, I'm over that this morning, but just... The only reason I got out of bed this morning was from rote mechanical habit. I'm on autopilot. I have no motivation.

I'm so unmotivated, I almost don't even feel like writing this post about how unmotivated I feel.

In the last couple days, I've been feeling a little down. Something's been bothering me, and I can't really put my finger on it. Not really, anyways. I'm starting to sound like I did a year ago, I think...

As near as I can tell... There's just a bunch of things I have to say, but I "can't" say them, because I don't want to... cause the effect it would have on people, or something. And it's not just one thing, either, but a bunch of things which, I fear, would negatively affect a bunch of people. And so I sit here in silence, and as always, I think the silence is what's hurting.

I don't believe anyone is selfish out of cruelty.

On impulse, I was just about to erase this all.
I'll post it now, as I can't think of anymore to say.

Comments

[surichan.livejournal.com]

What's up?

...where do you go when you're lonely?...

[tzohekiti.livejournal.com]

If you have to say them, say them.
We are your friends, we don't want you to be a masicist.
So bite the bullet, and spit it out. Ok?
*nuzzle*

[violetmay.livejournal.com]

*points to the comment above me* Yep.

[mordainlove.livejournal.com]

what's the matter, dearest? ::nudge:: one might be said that talking would help. or so said a wise boy to ME on several different days. ::smile::