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jackofallgeeks) wrote2002-02-01 01:11 am
jackofallgeeks) wrote2002-02-01 01:11 am
Entry tags:
Story Of A Lonely Guy
I must start by saying that this is a beautiful song. I think once my brother, Gene, said he didn't like it. I think it's amazing. Simply amazing.
Let me see, where should I begin? I woke up this morning, that was a plus. Had a Physics test that was really simple, I thought. Apparently the professor, quote, "gave us a rough test on purpose." That makes me feel good - I'm confident about a test that my professor claimed was hard. We'll see how I feel when I get the grades back.
Got my Calc test back from monday. I got a 50. Dam it. I KNOW what I'm doing, I swear I do, but it doesn't look it on the tests. Mayhaps I should set more time aside for work on Calculus. *sigh* I don't need another C on my GPA (and i'm the one who insists C is average for a reson). Tomarrow is the sister test for that one, and I think he said the two grades are going to be averaged. But even if I ace this one, that means that I still only get a 75. A C. Dam it.
Moving on, I must thank you all for the comments. I was actually going to remove commenting from that post, because the fact of the matter is I don't need you guys appologizing to me. But you contributed something, and I appreciate it. It just means alot to me to know I'm not just talking to a wall.
Computer class was bland, as was work (I actually did alot of nothing today and made $15 for it). Had an English paper to do tonight, got 1/2 way through, and then my computer crashed, and I hadn't saved anything. It sucked. I got to see Claire online, as per most nights, and that was comforting.
Would you all think I was insane if I said I was afraid of getting too attached? Say what you will, that I'm afraid of commitment, that I'm fickle, that I'm only out for the chase, but much as I care about Claire, I fear dating. Katie asked me why were weren't going out ("You were all over eachother"), and the fact of the matter is I'm afraid of moving there, going to fast. If I'm afraid of losing Emily for getting too far apart, I'm afraid of losing Claire for getting to close. Does that make sense?
I talked with Louis tonight for the first time in ages, and realized he'd never heard a word about Claire. A few choice bits of our conversation:
Louis: nice
Louis: very nice
Me: She looks better in person.
Louis: damn how do you always get the cute ones?
Me: I'm just that smoothe. ^_-
Louis: I need some pointers man.
Louis: damn what the fuck in fucking hell, you know how hard it is to find a decent geeky girl up here? I have to move back to MD, where the geeks live.
Me: Pointers? All i can say is leather pants, dog collar, and clip on ear-rings. they'll think you're gay, but when they find out you aren't.... (I only suggest this at CONS, BIG warning there....wear that in Philly, you may get shot.)
Louis: wait, yo uhave a pair of leather pants?
Me: LOL Uhm...no.
Louis: lol I don't have the legs for that
Me: LOL
Well, they're tight as hell, but they're actually comfortable after the fisrt few...uhm, I mean, I'm TOLD they're comfortable.....
Louis: lol
Uhm, what else...I had to actually say good night to Claire early this evening - I'd lost half my paper, and it needed to get done. I must confess that my eyes hae been burning ever since (you KNOW what I'm hinting at, but I'm not gonna say it). I've been rather lonely, I guess, since this past weekend ended, and the precieved rejection by Emily hasn't helped things any. Then what with my Calc grades hurting, and just everything piling up, I guess I'm one big tangle of emotion right now. I miss everyone. I need people. I want that night on the couch again. Nyo. -_-
On a positive note, I'm getting alot of notes down for my story, and slowly building some semblance of a plot line. I think I may solicit one of you lucky people to look over the notes I have and give me feed back. I hesitate because I don't want to give ANY of my story away.
I suppose that's that, for now. I have another entry to make before bed, so let me do that.
Let me see, where should I begin? I woke up this morning, that was a plus. Had a Physics test that was really simple, I thought. Apparently the professor, quote, "gave us a rough test on purpose." That makes me feel good - I'm confident about a test that my professor claimed was hard. We'll see how I feel when I get the grades back.
Got my Calc test back from monday. I got a 50. Dam it. I KNOW what I'm doing, I swear I do, but it doesn't look it on the tests. Mayhaps I should set more time aside for work on Calculus. *sigh* I don't need another C on my GPA (and i'm the one who insists C is average for a reson). Tomarrow is the sister test for that one, and I think he said the two grades are going to be averaged. But even if I ace this one, that means that I still only get a 75. A C. Dam it.
Moving on, I must thank you all for the comments. I was actually going to remove commenting from that post, because the fact of the matter is I don't need you guys appologizing to me. But you contributed something, and I appreciate it. It just means alot to me to know I'm not just talking to a wall.
Computer class was bland, as was work (I actually did alot of nothing today and made $15 for it). Had an English paper to do tonight, got 1/2 way through, and then my computer crashed, and I hadn't saved anything. It sucked. I got to see Claire online, as per most nights, and that was comforting.
Would you all think I was insane if I said I was afraid of getting too attached? Say what you will, that I'm afraid of commitment, that I'm fickle, that I'm only out for the chase, but much as I care about Claire, I fear dating. Katie asked me why were weren't going out ("You were all over eachother"), and the fact of the matter is I'm afraid of moving there, going to fast. If I'm afraid of losing Emily for getting too far apart, I'm afraid of losing Claire for getting to close. Does that make sense?
I talked with Louis tonight for the first time in ages, and realized he'd never heard a word about Claire. A few choice bits of our conversation:
Louis: nice
Louis: very nice
Me: She looks better in person.
Louis: damn how do you always get the cute ones?
Me: I'm just that smoothe. ^_-
Louis: I need some pointers man.
Louis: damn what the fuck in fucking hell, you know how hard it is to find a decent geeky girl up here? I have to move back to MD, where the geeks live.
Me: Pointers? All i can say is leather pants, dog collar, and clip on ear-rings. they'll think you're gay, but when they find out you aren't.... (I only suggest this at CONS, BIG warning there....wear that in Philly, you may get shot.)
Louis: wait, yo uhave a pair of leather pants?
Me: LOL Uhm...no.
Louis: lol I don't have the legs for that
Me: LOL
Well, they're tight as hell, but they're actually comfortable after the fisrt few...uhm, I mean, I'm TOLD they're comfortable.....
Louis: lol
Uhm, what else...I had to actually say good night to Claire early this evening - I'd lost half my paper, and it needed to get done. I must confess that my eyes hae been burning ever since (you KNOW what I'm hinting at, but I'm not gonna say it). I've been rather lonely, I guess, since this past weekend ended, and the precieved rejection by Emily hasn't helped things any. Then what with my Calc grades hurting, and just everything piling up, I guess I'm one big tangle of emotion right now. I miss everyone. I need people. I want that night on the couch again. Nyo. -_-
On a positive note, I'm getting alot of notes down for my story, and slowly building some semblance of a plot line. I think I may solicit one of you lucky people to look over the notes I have and give me feed back. I hesitate because I don't want to give ANY of my story away.
I suppose that's that, for now. I have another entry to make before bed, so let me do that.