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jackofallgeeks) wrote2008-08-07 09:02 pm
jackofallgeeks) wrote2008-08-07 09:02 pm
Staving Off The Night
So, my computer is broken. I reinstalled Windows without making sure I had all driver CDs, so it can't get to the Internet, which makes it pretty useless to me. It can't even recognize a Cat5 cable. And part of me thinks that maybe I didn't need to reinstall Windows... But that's neither here nor there.
Part of why I blog is to feel like I'm still connected. It's pretty hard for me sometimes (like now) to live by myself. I get lonely if I go too long (a few hours) without vocalizing.
I have a girlfriend now. That's pretty common knowledge now. I'm crazy about her, and it's all going really well. We get along great, and I love her family... Some of my friends have expressed concern because we're moving really fast, or because of the difficult past me and Meghan have had. I don't need help doubting, really -- my doubts have no basis but you should all know that I'm prone to despair as it is. I'm not going to rush into anything without thinking it through.
It is moving fast, but that's because anything we needed to discuss we took care of years ago. The biggest difficulties we had wee that I was busy with school out in California (and not comfortable with a distance relationship) and she felt threatened by my (many, lovely) lady friends. I'm not in school any more and she's grown over the years (she's not as insecure as she was), so none of that's an issue anymore. And we're very in love with each other.
So. Yes. Anyways. I guess there's only a couple if my friends that this is addressed to, and I've probably already cleared this up with them... I'm just lonely and this was the only topic I could come up with to talk about. I don't like being alone.
Part of why I blog is to feel like I'm still connected. It's pretty hard for me sometimes (like now) to live by myself. I get lonely if I go too long (a few hours) without vocalizing.
I have a girlfriend now. That's pretty common knowledge now. I'm crazy about her, and it's all going really well. We get along great, and I love her family... Some of my friends have expressed concern because we're moving really fast, or because of the difficult past me and Meghan have had. I don't need help doubting, really -- my doubts have no basis but you should all know that I'm prone to despair as it is. I'm not going to rush into anything without thinking it through.
It is moving fast, but that's because anything we needed to discuss we took care of years ago. The biggest difficulties we had wee that I was busy with school out in California (and not comfortable with a distance relationship) and she felt threatened by my (many, lovely) lady friends. I'm not in school any more and she's grown over the years (she's not as insecure as she was), so none of that's an issue anymore. And we're very in love with each other.
So. Yes. Anyways. I guess there's only a couple if my friends that this is addressed to, and I've probably already cleared this up with them... I'm just lonely and this was the only topic I could come up with to talk about. I don't like being alone.
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Anyway, about friends judging relationships... When Jeff and I were first together, everybody was against it, because of the age difference. Some folks were downright mean, and did their level best to break us up. We'd never make it, they said. She's taking him for a ride, they said. This will end in disaster, they said. Now, here we are, 25.5 years later still together and them? None of them are still together. Not one of the ones who were so negative about us are still together. So, it's really hard to know who are the best relationship-fortune-tellers.
I wish you the best! For your relationship, and your computer!