John Noble (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
jackofallgeeks) wrote2008-08-07 09:02 pm
jackofallgeeks) wrote2008-08-07 09:02 pm
Staving Off The Night
So, my computer is broken. I reinstalled Windows without making sure I had all driver CDs, so it can't get to the Internet, which makes it pretty useless to me. It can't even recognize a Cat5 cable. And part of me thinks that maybe I didn't need to reinstall Windows... But that's neither here nor there.
Part of why I blog is to feel like I'm still connected. It's pretty hard for me sometimes (like now) to live by myself. I get lonely if I go too long (a few hours) without vocalizing.
I have a girlfriend now. That's pretty common knowledge now. I'm crazy about her, and it's all going really well. We get along great, and I love her family... Some of my friends have expressed concern because we're moving really fast, or because of the difficult past me and Meghan have had. I don't need help doubting, really -- my doubts have no basis but you should all know that I'm prone to despair as it is. I'm not going to rush into anything without thinking it through.
It is moving fast, but that's because anything we needed to discuss we took care of years ago. The biggest difficulties we had wee that I was busy with school out in California (and not comfortable with a distance relationship) and she felt threatened by my (many, lovely) lady friends. I'm not in school any more and she's grown over the years (she's not as insecure as she was), so none of that's an issue anymore. And we're very in love with each other.
So. Yes. Anyways. I guess there's only a couple if my friends that this is addressed to, and I've probably already cleared this up with them... I'm just lonely and this was the only topic I could come up with to talk about. I don't like being alone.
Part of why I blog is to feel like I'm still connected. It's pretty hard for me sometimes (like now) to live by myself. I get lonely if I go too long (a few hours) without vocalizing.
I have a girlfriend now. That's pretty common knowledge now. I'm crazy about her, and it's all going really well. We get along great, and I love her family... Some of my friends have expressed concern because we're moving really fast, or because of the difficult past me and Meghan have had. I don't need help doubting, really -- my doubts have no basis but you should all know that I'm prone to despair as it is. I'm not going to rush into anything without thinking it through.
It is moving fast, but that's because anything we needed to discuss we took care of years ago. The biggest difficulties we had wee that I was busy with school out in California (and not comfortable with a distance relationship) and she felt threatened by my (many, lovely) lady friends. I'm not in school any more and she's grown over the years (she's not as insecure as she was), so none of that's an issue anymore. And we're very in love with each other.
So. Yes. Anyways. I guess there's only a couple if my friends that this is addressed to, and I've probably already cleared this up with them... I'm just lonely and this was the only topic I could come up with to talk about. I don't like being alone.
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I didn't know you changed your layout either, so I learned two things today.
I've been behind since the end of April, busy with ... well, you know what with.
Anyway, I'm happy for you, but curious why so lonely when you have a girlfriend now?
And also surprised that you're having trouble with a windows reinstall. Seems like you could do that with your eyes closed?
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