jackofallgeeks: (pl4y with 3vil)
John Noble ([personal profile] jackofallgeeks) wrote2008-05-14 11:45 am

Bad Idea

I need someone (everyone?) to remind me why trying to get back in touch with
Suzannah would be a Bad Idea (tm).

[identity profile] jackofallgeeks.livejournal.com 2008-05-15 08:13 pm (UTC)(link)
First, you unfairly minimize your importance to me. Quite a few of my friends do this. Please don't. you're a good friend and I take your opinion into consideration at least as much as anyone else's.

Second, you didn't make me angry just... tread on an old wound. I don't like people being mean to each other. I don't like people saying mean things about people they don't know. I don't like people saying mean things to people I care about -- and mistreated or no, Suzannah was a friend of mine and I do still care for her.

And yeah, you're right, I did get hurt a lot, and you're more than right for not wanting me to get hurt again. The trouble is that almost 100% of what you know about her is from things I said when trying to deal with that pain. You weren't there to see me when we were together and I was happy. Someone who only read my posts dealing with my breakup with Claire would get a similar impression, but that ignores all the really great things about Claire (let alone that ours was an amiable break-up; I just hurt easily, like you said).

Personally, I'd rather act and be hurt than not-act and always wonder. Life is pain; anyone who says otherwise is selling something.