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jackofallgeeks) wrote2004-09-22 04:08 am
jackofallgeeks) wrote2004-09-22 04:08 am
Email, Compact Discs, and Heartache
So, in my most recent email, I gushed to Suzannah about Cruxshadows and how I would have had her listen to them, except I didn't expect she'd like them. So she writes back with a "-laughs- Give me a chance." So now I feel rather embarrassed and foolish. I go to burn her a CD of music that I consider my favorites... and come up with no less than 3 CDs' worth. and there are still songs I think she should hear, but I don't want to make a fourth CD. ^_^;; I'll give her these CDs on Thursday and ask her what she thinks.
In other news... I don't know. A couple days ago I would have said that I was overcome with apathy -- toward work, toward school, toward life in general, which includes Suzannah. But my sister came to visit and I couldn't think of anything I wanted to talk about more than Suzannah. we didn't, not really, but she was always at the front of my mind. And not but a couple hours ago I was talking with Anastasiya about Suzannah, and was hit with a slightly-more-than-mild bit of heartache. The whole, "I just want to love and be loved," thing. I want someone to come home to when the day is over. I want my suburban house, and my suburban family, and I'd even tolerate a suburban dog.
And, so, yeah... Now it's another day that it's after 4:00am, and I'm not tired. Well, not sleepy. i need to get back on something of a normal sleep cycle. Whatever it is I'm doing isn't working.
Does anybody feel the way I do? Is there anyone out there, are you hearing me? I believe in you, do you believe in me? Or am I alone in this hall of dreams?
In other news... I don't know. A couple days ago I would have said that I was overcome with apathy -- toward work, toward school, toward life in general, which includes Suzannah. But my sister came to visit and I couldn't think of anything I wanted to talk about more than Suzannah. we didn't, not really, but she was always at the front of my mind. And not but a couple hours ago I was talking with Anastasiya about Suzannah, and was hit with a slightly-more-than-mild bit of heartache. The whole, "I just want to love and be loved," thing. I want someone to come home to when the day is over. I want my suburban house, and my suburban family, and I'd even tolerate a suburban dog.
And, so, yeah... Now it's another day that it's after 4:00am, and I'm not tired. Well, not sleepy. i need to get back on something of a normal sleep cycle. Whatever it is I'm doing isn't working.
Does anybody feel the way I do? Is there anyone out there, are you hearing me? I believe in you, do you believe in me? Or am I alone in this hall of dreams?
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Anyway, best of luck tomorrow.