John Noble (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
jackofallgeeks) wrote2008-02-09 08:40 pm
jackofallgeeks) wrote2008-02-09 08:40 pm
You're a Wonderful Guy, for Someone Else
Flushing more negative emotion; don't mind me. I'm supposed to be leaving for a party, and if I can get some of this vinegar out first, maybe I'll make for better company.
In in a spot right now, again, where I don't think the girl I'm looking for exists. I don't think I ask for terribly much: smart, pretty, Catholic, wants a family. And wants me. It's that last bit that I can't help but feel is the sticking point. I'm sure there are plenty of smart, pretty, Catholic girls out there, and I'm sure plenty of them want a family. But...
I'm notoriously proud and confident. It's one of my greatest strengths, according to many friends. Sometimes I think it's one of my greatest failings, as I can be rather elitist and judgmental, and I generally don't recognize it as a problem. But even for that, I can't help but feel that "wanting me" is the most trying request I ever make of anyone. Without really meaning to, all of my relationships (romantic or otherwise) boil down to "I will offer you something so that you will love me." I have to have something to weigh against the terrible burden of liking me.
I know I'm a likable guy. I'm smart, and caring, I can be funny, and (with only a few recent exceptions) I've never had anyone say they don't want to know me.
Anyways, the point is that I just want people to like me, and I sometimes feel like that's asking a lot.
In in a spot right now, again, where I don't think the girl I'm looking for exists. I don't think I ask for terribly much: smart, pretty, Catholic, wants a family. And wants me. It's that last bit that I can't help but feel is the sticking point. I'm sure there are plenty of smart, pretty, Catholic girls out there, and I'm sure plenty of them want a family. But...
I'm notoriously proud and confident. It's one of my greatest strengths, according to many friends. Sometimes I think it's one of my greatest failings, as I can be rather elitist and judgmental, and I generally don't recognize it as a problem. But even for that, I can't help but feel that "wanting me" is the most trying request I ever make of anyone. Without really meaning to, all of my relationships (romantic or otherwise) boil down to "I will offer you something so that you will love me." I have to have something to weigh against the terrible burden of liking me.
I know I'm a likable guy. I'm smart, and caring, I can be funny, and (with only a few recent exceptions) I've never had anyone say they don't want to know me.
Anyways, the point is that I just want people to like me, and I sometimes feel like that's asking a lot.
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But I think you have a lot to offer a girl and eventually you will find her. Its going to suck until then and nothing anyone says will help the blah feelings go away completely. But I think you are a very likable person and I have always thought that from the first time I met you. I am very happy that I have you as a friend!!! Just hang in there! *hugs*