Sun don't shine, wind don't blow...

[jackofallgeeks]

I'm scared.

I'm scared that my finances will fall out from under me.
I'm scared that I'll get to Monterey with nowhere to live.
I'm scared that I'll fail my classes.
I'm scared that I'll futz up my thesis.
I'm scared that I'll botch things with Kira.
I'm scared that there's nothing *to* botch up with Kira.

Uncertainty has a way of getting to me. I like being certain of things. Right now, I'm not feeling very certain of much of anything. I'll be OK. I just need something to ground me, something that I can be sure of.

I'm scared.


Nothing I can do // that I have not done. // No words I can say. // No truth left that I can see. // So must I let this end // so everything falls apart. // Before I live the life // as I have always done. // Tell me what to do // so I do nothing wrong. // Something I can hope for. // Something real that I can see. // So nothing falls apart. // So that it does not end. // I cannot return. // I can't start again.
-VNV Nation, Rubicon

Comments

[surichan.livejournal.com]

Do you know what your horoscope said in today's paper - the selfsame one from which came my eerily accurate reading?

Taurus: It doesn't matter whether you know how to get where you want to go. You'll figure it out - you always do. If you stumble around in the darkness long enough, you're bound to bump into the light switch.

Aside from that, come hang with your would-be best "man" tomorrow. I'll pour hugs all over you.

[jackofallgeeks.livejournal.com]

You'll figure it out - you always do.

-laughs- If I had a buck for every time someone's told me (some variation of) that, I'd have no financial problems at all! -laughs-

[naughtjennifer.livejournal.com]

-laughs- If I had a buck for every time someone's told me (some variation of) that, I'd have no financial problems at all! -laughs-

Or, you know, you'll spend it on even MORE stuff you want but don't really need, Mr. Top 6% :p

Seriously, just relax. Take things one day at a time, try not to do anything stupid, somehow you'll stumble your way through. Honestly, what's the worst that could happen?