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[jackofallgeeks]

And now I'm kind of sad.
Mostly lonely.
I think maybe it's the glass of wine I had with dinner.
And the fact that nearly all my friends and family are so far away.

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[mordainlove.livejournal.com]

i am sorry you are sad and lonely, dearest boy. ::hugs:: i know the feeling, but it shouldn't fall on you so often. sorry i'm not online at the right times to talk - it seems as if i never really am. :( but i am constantly thinking of you, and hoping you're well.

[jackofallgeeks.livejournal.com]

-smiles- These days, 'sad' is my default stance. It's almost comfortable for it's familiarity. But, between you and I, I secretly hope for the day when someone reminds me what it's like to feel not-sad again.

If, by chance, you ever see me on, but my Away Message up, odds are it's a fascade. i'm still not over 'hiding' on AIM. You do know I've switched screen-names to match my new Identity as Jack, yes?

[mordainlove.livejournal.com]

that day is out there waiting for you, andrew. i know it. and when you find it? well, i have a feeling all your friends will groan from the never-ending happy. ;) just remember your emo roots! ::laugh:: you know i love you, right? :)

i rarely go on AIM, but if i see that as such, i will say hi and hope for the best. i'm not sure if i have that name down for you or not - if not, it wouldn't be hard to add it. :)

[between you and me, i've been pretty sad these days myself - but the loss of my grandfather, the normal post-holiday blues, the current-birthday blues, etc are the things that have me down. i'm sure it'll pass, but it's still rocky when you're in it.]

[jackofallgeeks.livejournal.com]

I'm pretty sure it's out there for me, too. It happened once; I stumbled onto this wonderful little blond girl who showed me what it was like to be not-sad, and it was an amazing feeling. I'm sure it'll come again, and I'm sure it'll be just as amazing.

I was talking to my dad once, and he said that babies were funny things, because of aging, he said. As you get older, each moment of time is a smaller and smaller percentage of your life; but for babies, each and every moment is almost the entirety of their existence. When a baby is cold, he's always been cold. When he's hungry, he's been hungry since time immemorable. I'm not so sure I agree with him, though; I don't think we really outgrow that with age.

And I'm not Emo, I'm Goth! :p I turn the lights off when I cry. :p

[All things in time, ne? This too shall pass. And, to ease your mind if I haven't done so already, I'm aware of the transitory nature of my own sadness. -grins- Especially for me, emotions don't hold on for very long at a time. Sometimes, when I sit and think, I can feel happy again. Which, actually, is the topic of a post I keep meaning to write, but keep putting off. Like now, as I think I'm too tired to be sensible.]