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[jackofallgeeks]

-snears-
So there's this pseudo-friend of mine, a girl who I met out on the West Coast. About a year after I moved back East, she told me she was gay. Then she told me she was seeing a 34-yr old (She was 18). Then she'd slept with the 34-yr old, then a 17-yr old, then a 24-yr old... Now she's all-but-bragging about 'turning' a highschool girl, and how she 'feels sorry' for the guy who likes said highschool girl. And then she goes on to say how this other girl -- the ex-lover of an ex-lover -- is coming to see her for a few days. But it's not that she's interested in her, she just wants to "get drunk and sleep with her."

At once this all disgusts and enrages me, and it's not really due to the homosexuality -- some of my closest friends are gay. I just get this overwhelming feeling of... like an oily film over me, and I just want to break something.

Sorry for the poor guy indeed.

Comments

[metis2be.livejournal.com]

I don't really believe any of what she's doing is real. With all the experiences I've had doing the kind of thing you describe (by no means the same actions, I never have and don't intend to sleep around) most actions like that are more of an escape. There's normally some aspect of a persons life that they can't deal with, so they cover up what they see as weakness with stupid impulse actions. The problem is, the actions are worse than the weakness, which involves its own cover up, which tends to be flaunting the actions to prove it doesn't bother the person (I'm sure you've noticed me doing this at least once)

I don't know. I've just been evaluating myself lately and found that pattern in my actions, so it seems more likely right now that she's hiding herself than actually just doesn't give a crap about her actions and who she'll hurt. I don't understand people like that and how they can be like that, so this is just my humble little opinion.

[jackofallgeeks.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I don't understand that sort, either... Part of what gets to me is that I used to know this girl. And yeah, she was a little vapid and a little insecure, but she wasn't vicious. And now she is, or seems to be, and show no sign of even wanting to care about it...

And, actually, for as unstable as I'm sure you think you are, you seem like a half-decent girl. Yeah, I don't think you should be doing some of what you do, but I think you know that, and the fact that you're even thinking about it is a good sign. Or something. And yeah, I think I have seen you flaunt things in an attempt to prove they don't bother you... -smiles-

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