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jackofallgeeks) wrote2003-12-01 05:46 am
jackofallgeeks) wrote2003-12-01 05:46 am
He Said, She Said...
[18:28.44] Andrew: Would it be odd if I asked about the way you and I were/are/that sorta stuff?
[18:28.55] Claire: Not odd...
[18:29.17] Andrew: Is there a 'but' there?
[18:29.21] Claire: But if you'd like to know, I was glad we were just friends again...
[18:29.33] Andrew: -smiles- Yeah, I think I figured that.
[18:29.39] Andrew: I mean now, not then.
[18:30.00] Andrew: What was it like on your end?
[18:30.10] Claire: I dunno, it just didn't feel right, ya know?...
[18:30.37] Andrew: I think I might. -nods- I'm sorry if It was anything I did. I fear it might have been, having been where I just was.
[18:30.55] Andrew: But when we broke up, what was it like, for you?
[18:31.07] Andrew: ^_^;; And stuff.
[18:31.13] Claire: It was hard because you still held on so tight, I didn't know what to do...
[18:31.55] Claire: I wanted to still spend time with you and all that, but it felt strained, ya know?...
[18:32.48] Claire: Hope I'm not dredging up bad memories for you :-\...
[18:33.34] Andrew: Yeah, I didn't want to let go... ^_^;; And I kind of appologize about that, too, but... I felt really strongly for you, and I was scared and confused.... I wish we ad spent time together, even just as friends. I felt really alone alot last year.
-laughs- No, dear, you aren't. Everything about you and I is good memories... ^_^;; I'm past it all, now, and i'm curious as to your side of it.
[18:33.59] Andrew: Like I said, I think I'm in the same spot, now. i'm afraid I broke her heart, and I'm not sure how to soften the blow.
[18:34.56] Claire: There's not much you can do, or at least I didn't feel there was anything I could do. Hope she finds someone...
[18:35.29] Claire: It's hard to be lonely and even more so to make someone else that way...
[18:35.53] Andrew: ^_^;; And it gives you and I something to talk about, and I've missed having you around, even as a friend.
Yeah... I think she might... I'm just trying to be there as a friend, but i'm half-afraid of leading her on or something....
[18:36.25] Claire: Yep. It's hard to let them go and stay good friends...
[18:36.47] Claire: You feel like you're egging them on the entire time...
[18:37.12] Andrew: -smiles- I'm afraid it's still oing to hurt when she finds herself a new someone.
[18:37.27] Andrew: Hopefully i'll be courting a lovely young lady by then, though....
[18:37.29] Andrew: ^_^;;
[18:37.38] Claire: It will, only time can ease that...
[18:38.08] Andrew: (I sent my letter off, and now I have nothing to do with my time! -laughs-)
Yeah... -shrugs-
So, Might I ask some other questions...?
[18:38.14] Claire: Yes, it's very hard when you've found someone and they haven't, too. You feel bad. Even just having someone you're interested in..
[18:38.21] Claire: Sure...
[18:38.53] Andrew: ;-) On that note, when did you find Mark? I got his name right, right? And how are you two doing?
[18:39.25] Claire: brb...
[18:39.27] Andrew: :-p
[18:39.29] Andrew: OK.
[18:39.57] Claire: Sorry, that was my mom...
[18:40.07] Andrew: S'okay.
[18:40.10] Andrew: Phone?
[18:40.54] Claire: Mark and I are doing great ^_^. I hate coming back to Umass because it means no him... Yeah, she caught me on the electronic leash...
[18:41.23] Andrew: :-p Don't tell me YOU refer to Cells that way, too. :-p
[18:41.32] Claire: Heehee Fraid so...
[18:41.44] Andrew: :-p Just ignore it if you don't wann chat. :-p
[18:41.55] Claire: Well, I can't ignore my mom, come on...
[18:42.19] Andrew: I get gruff cause I 'never' answer my phone. ^_^;; Like anyone ever calls....
Well, yeah, I don't expect you to ignotre your mom, but still... a leash? :-p
[18:42.31] Andrew: -giggles- Choto kinky desu, ne? ;-)
[18:42.43] Claire: It's always with me... lol Yeah...
[18:43.20] Andrew: But anyways....
[18:44.56] Claire: I've known Mark since freshman year. Always thought he was cute but never did anything about it (shrug). Then comes senior year and we're in gov class together. We started playing 'games' around February...
[18:45.15] Claire: Officially got together the weekend after prom...
[18:45.22] Andrew: -nods- Yeah.
[18:45.54] Claire: It's a hilarious story if we ever get a chance to sit down. Thoroughly entertaining...
[18:46.34] Andrew: :-p Well, I was gonna see f we could get t'gether sometime over break, for coffee or something equally arbitrary. ;-) You could tell me about it then.'
[18:46.57] Claire: lol If it can be arranged I'd like that...
[18:47.47] Andrew: Yeah, I'd really like t'see you again. ^_^;; It wouldn't be too much trouble, I make three and four hour drives like they're nothing. :-p
[18:48.03] Andrew: You good for another question...?
[18:48.16] Claire: lol It'd make my job easier, though I don't mind meeting you in the middle...
[18:48.18] Claire: Sure..
[18:49.58] Andrew: Yeah, we can do whichever, I don't mind. And I've got Isis, so w00+
OK, I have to admit it's bothered me in itself, and it's bothered me that I didn't take you at your work, which I appologize for, but... No holds barred, why did we break up?
[18:50.08] Andrew: work = word.
[18:52.20] Claire: There were a couple reasons, most of which I've tried to forget and thus forgot. But I think the main thing was that I didn't feel like I could marry you. The lifestyle I know/knew you wanted wasn't what I wanted. I felt like I wouldn't get everything accomplished that I'd wanted done...
[18:52.56] Claire: You know what I mean?...
[18:54.04] Andrew: Yeah, I really do. And you know, I admire you more for that, if you don't mind me saying so. ^_^;;
[18:54.29] Claire: It makes me feel better to hear you say that ^_^...
[18:54.55] Claire: I still feel terrible for hurting you...
[18:55.30] Andrew: -shakes head- No, it's OK, Dear. I still care for you, even if I am over the whole 'us' thing. What's done is done, and all that.
[18:56.06] Claire: I really hope Suzanna works out with you, she sounds wonderful...
[18:56.14] Andrew: -smiles- Don't feel too bad for hurting me, Dear, cause you did what you felt was right, and I'd much prefer that than anything else.
[18:57.05] Andrew: ^_^;; Yeah, she and I can just seem to talk and such... I get kinda scared, though, because in alot of ways, is feels like she stepped right out of the 1800s, and I don't feel like i fit in her world...
[18:58.02] Claire: I know exactly what you mean. Give it some time, maybe there's not as many differences as you think. It might just take some thinking...
[18:58.45] Andrew: Heh, yeah, perhapse. :-p She's Catholic, she wants to have a family, she likes cooking, and I feel like she and I are on the same intellectual level, which is wonderous. ^_^
[18:59.02] Claire: It took me a while to figure out what I wanted. You helped a lot in that, which I thank you for..
[18:59.29] Andrew: ^_^ Then I'm happy I helped.
[18:59.47] Claire: You're my favorite "mistake" :-P...
[19:00.17] Andrew: I'm starting to figure out what I want, but then, maybe I already knew. ^_^;; I KNEW Asya and I wouldn't work, even before we started....
Awwww. -giggles- I love you, Claire! -laughs-
[19:01.53] Claire: It doesn't hurt to date people to help you figure out what you want, I think my mother tried to tell me that once..
[19:02.41] Andrew: I think it sorta does... Hurt, at least. ^_^;; But then, yeah, I think it does help you figure things out, as long as it doesn't end too harshly...
[19:03.12] Andrew: I'm still trying to get through some of my early baggage, but I think you helped alot with that. :-p Especially when you broke up with me. -laughs-
[19:03.28] Claire: Yeah... But even that helps you as long as you learn from it...
[19:03.46] Claire: It hurts like hell, but thta makes you appreciate the good things that much more..
[19:04.27] Andrew: Well, see, After Nancy, for example, I only knew of relationships ending badly. And, my year of suckage aside, you and I are still good friends. And I thik Asya and I are still going to be friends. And that makes me feel better, about everything in general.
[19:04.42] Andrew: Yeah, sometimes pain isn't a bad thing.
[18:28.55] Claire: Not odd...
[18:29.17] Andrew: Is there a 'but' there?
[18:29.21] Claire: But if you'd like to know, I was glad we were just friends again...
[18:29.33] Andrew: -smiles- Yeah, I think I figured that.
[18:29.39] Andrew: I mean now, not then.
[18:30.00] Andrew: What was it like on your end?
[18:30.10] Claire: I dunno, it just didn't feel right, ya know?...
[18:30.37] Andrew: I think I might. -nods- I'm sorry if It was anything I did. I fear it might have been, having been where I just was.
[18:30.55] Andrew: But when we broke up, what was it like, for you?
[18:31.07] Andrew: ^_^;; And stuff.
[18:31.13] Claire: It was hard because you still held on so tight, I didn't know what to do...
[18:31.55] Claire: I wanted to still spend time with you and all that, but it felt strained, ya know?...
[18:32.48] Claire: Hope I'm not dredging up bad memories for you :-\...
[18:33.34] Andrew: Yeah, I didn't want to let go... ^_^;; And I kind of appologize about that, too, but... I felt really strongly for you, and I was scared and confused.... I wish we ad spent time together, even just as friends. I felt really alone alot last year.
-laughs- No, dear, you aren't. Everything about you and I is good memories... ^_^;; I'm past it all, now, and i'm curious as to your side of it.
[18:33.59] Andrew: Like I said, I think I'm in the same spot, now. i'm afraid I broke her heart, and I'm not sure how to soften the blow.
[18:34.56] Claire: There's not much you can do, or at least I didn't feel there was anything I could do. Hope she finds someone...
[18:35.29] Claire: It's hard to be lonely and even more so to make someone else that way...
[18:35.53] Andrew: ^_^;; And it gives you and I something to talk about, and I've missed having you around, even as a friend.
Yeah... I think she might... I'm just trying to be there as a friend, but i'm half-afraid of leading her on or something....
[18:36.25] Claire: Yep. It's hard to let them go and stay good friends...
[18:36.47] Claire: You feel like you're egging them on the entire time...
[18:37.12] Andrew: -smiles- I'm afraid it's still oing to hurt when she finds herself a new someone.
[18:37.27] Andrew: Hopefully i'll be courting a lovely young lady by then, though....
[18:37.29] Andrew: ^_^;;
[18:37.38] Claire: It will, only time can ease that...
[18:38.08] Andrew: (I sent my letter off, and now I have nothing to do with my time! -laughs-)
Yeah... -shrugs-
So, Might I ask some other questions...?
[18:38.14] Claire: Yes, it's very hard when you've found someone and they haven't, too. You feel bad. Even just having someone you're interested in..
[18:38.21] Claire: Sure...
[18:38.53] Andrew: ;-) On that note, when did you find Mark? I got his name right, right? And how are you two doing?
[18:39.25] Claire: brb...
[18:39.27] Andrew: :-p
[18:39.29] Andrew: OK.
[18:39.57] Claire: Sorry, that was my mom...
[18:40.07] Andrew: S'okay.
[18:40.10] Andrew: Phone?
[18:40.54] Claire: Mark and I are doing great ^_^. I hate coming back to Umass because it means no him... Yeah, she caught me on the electronic leash...
[18:41.23] Andrew: :-p Don't tell me YOU refer to Cells that way, too. :-p
[18:41.32] Claire: Heehee Fraid so...
[18:41.44] Andrew: :-p Just ignore it if you don't wann chat. :-p
[18:41.55] Claire: Well, I can't ignore my mom, come on...
[18:42.19] Andrew: I get gruff cause I 'never' answer my phone. ^_^;; Like anyone ever calls....
Well, yeah, I don't expect you to ignotre your mom, but still... a leash? :-p
[18:42.31] Andrew: -giggles- Choto kinky desu, ne? ;-)
[18:42.43] Claire: It's always with me... lol Yeah...
[18:43.20] Andrew: But anyways....
[18:44.56] Claire: I've known Mark since freshman year. Always thought he was cute but never did anything about it (shrug). Then comes senior year and we're in gov class together. We started playing 'games' around February...
[18:45.15] Claire: Officially got together the weekend after prom...
[18:45.22] Andrew: -nods- Yeah.
[18:45.54] Claire: It's a hilarious story if we ever get a chance to sit down. Thoroughly entertaining...
[18:46.34] Andrew: :-p Well, I was gonna see f we could get t'gether sometime over break, for coffee or something equally arbitrary. ;-) You could tell me about it then.'
[18:46.57] Claire: lol If it can be arranged I'd like that...
[18:47.47] Andrew: Yeah, I'd really like t'see you again. ^_^;; It wouldn't be too much trouble, I make three and four hour drives like they're nothing. :-p
[18:48.03] Andrew: You good for another question...?
[18:48.16] Claire: lol It'd make my job easier, though I don't mind meeting you in the middle...
[18:48.18] Claire: Sure..
[18:49.58] Andrew: Yeah, we can do whichever, I don't mind. And I've got Isis, so w00+
OK, I have to admit it's bothered me in itself, and it's bothered me that I didn't take you at your work, which I appologize for, but... No holds barred, why did we break up?
[18:50.08] Andrew: work = word.
[18:52.20] Claire: There were a couple reasons, most of which I've tried to forget and thus forgot. But I think the main thing was that I didn't feel like I could marry you. The lifestyle I know/knew you wanted wasn't what I wanted. I felt like I wouldn't get everything accomplished that I'd wanted done...
[18:52.56] Claire: You know what I mean?...
[18:54.04] Andrew: Yeah, I really do. And you know, I admire you more for that, if you don't mind me saying so. ^_^;;
[18:54.29] Claire: It makes me feel better to hear you say that ^_^...
[18:54.55] Claire: I still feel terrible for hurting you...
[18:55.30] Andrew: -shakes head- No, it's OK, Dear. I still care for you, even if I am over the whole 'us' thing. What's done is done, and all that.
[18:56.06] Claire: I really hope Suzanna works out with you, she sounds wonderful...
[18:56.14] Andrew: -smiles- Don't feel too bad for hurting me, Dear, cause you did what you felt was right, and I'd much prefer that than anything else.
[18:57.05] Andrew: ^_^;; Yeah, she and I can just seem to talk and such... I get kinda scared, though, because in alot of ways, is feels like she stepped right out of the 1800s, and I don't feel like i fit in her world...
[18:58.02] Claire: I know exactly what you mean. Give it some time, maybe there's not as many differences as you think. It might just take some thinking...
[18:58.45] Andrew: Heh, yeah, perhapse. :-p She's Catholic, she wants to have a family, she likes cooking, and I feel like she and I are on the same intellectual level, which is wonderous. ^_^
[18:59.02] Claire: It took me a while to figure out what I wanted. You helped a lot in that, which I thank you for..
[18:59.29] Andrew: ^_^ Then I'm happy I helped.
[18:59.47] Claire: You're my favorite "mistake" :-P...
[19:00.17] Andrew: I'm starting to figure out what I want, but then, maybe I already knew. ^_^;; I KNEW Asya and I wouldn't work, even before we started....
Awwww. -giggles- I love you, Claire! -laughs-
[19:01.53] Claire: It doesn't hurt to date people to help you figure out what you want, I think my mother tried to tell me that once..
[19:02.41] Andrew: I think it sorta does... Hurt, at least. ^_^;; But then, yeah, I think it does help you figure things out, as long as it doesn't end too harshly...
[19:03.12] Andrew: I'm still trying to get through some of my early baggage, but I think you helped alot with that. :-p Especially when you broke up with me. -laughs-
[19:03.28] Claire: Yeah... But even that helps you as long as you learn from it...
[19:03.46] Claire: It hurts like hell, but thta makes you appreciate the good things that much more..
[19:04.27] Andrew: Well, see, After Nancy, for example, I only knew of relationships ending badly. And, my year of suckage aside, you and I are still good friends. And I thik Asya and I are still going to be friends. And that makes me feel better, about everything in general.
[19:04.42] Andrew: Yeah, sometimes pain isn't a bad thing.
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Claire: You're my favorite "mistake" :-P...
Whee, I'm a song title!
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Friends with benefits is a good alternative. ;-)
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And while Friends with Benefits may be an enjoyable alternative, it doesn't keep things from getting too serious on one side the other, and then what? But then, I suppose, it could be argued that nothing can really prevent that (though, I think, generally, 'Just Friends' does a decent job...).