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jackofallgeeks) wrote2003-03-30 05:30 am
jackofallgeeks) wrote2003-03-30 05:30 am
I was Born; So I was Told, and So I Believe...
This post started out as a comment to a Post one of my Friends made. However, as I went through it, I kinda wanted to post it, as such, in my journal, just as it's a bit of random musings that I've been going over for a while. I hope, Beth, that you'll excuse the lack of a comment.
It's a funny thing, the future... I used to know what I wanted, really I did. I still do, in a way. But... Sometimes I look forward, through the haze, and it seems pointless, in a way. I mean, really, so I go out and I start programming software so I can pay rent and feed myself. There's only one thing I've ever really been able to find any meaning in, and that's people. Just, interacting with them, helping them, doing something that's more worthwhile then putting another bill in the mail. I could program a thousand computers, and it wouldn't give me as much satisfaction as even a single hour of true conversation with another person... ^_^;; So yeah, there's a little ditty 'bout the future.
"I've noticed I'm drifting away from anime."
I've felt the same way, actually, and for quite some time. Even before I met you, Beth, and the other ladies at Neko. The only reason I went to that or any Con since was for the people -- friends, old and new. in a way, it's kind of sad. It sounds 'mature,' with that sour tinge, the one that makes you wear a suit and drive the speed limit. That kind of maturity you see in Old People that makes you say, "I never want to be like that." But on the other hand, I think most of what you mentioned are positive things -- admiring an artist for his art, becoming unenthused about the more childish things, and understanding that Japan and all that comes with it is not the whole world. I've noticed that as I go through College, it seems more and more that Adults, like my parents and aunts and the like, are really Real People, like me and my friends. I wonder if that's because we really weren't that different to begin with, or because I've slowly become just like them.
Then I realize that I've stayed up past 5:30 in the morning and I'm not all that tired.
Ha ha! They haven't gotten me yet!
-=passes out=-
It's a funny thing, the future... I used to know what I wanted, really I did. I still do, in a way. But... Sometimes I look forward, through the haze, and it seems pointless, in a way. I mean, really, so I go out and I start programming software so I can pay rent and feed myself. There's only one thing I've ever really been able to find any meaning in, and that's people. Just, interacting with them, helping them, doing something that's more worthwhile then putting another bill in the mail. I could program a thousand computers, and it wouldn't give me as much satisfaction as even a single hour of true conversation with another person... ^_^;; So yeah, there's a little ditty 'bout the future.
"I've noticed I'm drifting away from anime."
I've felt the same way, actually, and for quite some time. Even before I met you, Beth, and the other ladies at Neko. The only reason I went to that or any Con since was for the people -- friends, old and new. in a way, it's kind of sad. It sounds 'mature,' with that sour tinge, the one that makes you wear a suit and drive the speed limit. That kind of maturity you see in Old People that makes you say, "I never want to be like that." But on the other hand, I think most of what you mentioned are positive things -- admiring an artist for his art, becoming unenthused about the more childish things, and understanding that Japan and all that comes with it is not the whole world. I've noticed that as I go through College, it seems more and more that Adults, like my parents and aunts and the like, are really Real People, like me and my friends. I wonder if that's because we really weren't that different to begin with, or because I've slowly become just like them.
Then I realize that I've stayed up past 5:30 in the morning and I'm not all that tired.
Ha ha! They haven't gotten me yet!
-=passes out=-
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