jackofallgeeks: (Catholic)
John Noble ([personal profile] jackofallgeeks) wrote2006-09-24 06:11 pm

The Divine Playwright.

So I was talking to Cindy today. And at one point she mentioned having a discussion about depression with one of her other friends, and her friends said, "you know why you get depressed? Because you're not doing God's Will. Because there's something you should be doing and you're not." And Cindy's reply was, "Oh, yeah, that makes sense. Duh."

And I was thinking, "No. No it doesn't."

And this highlights a significant difference between myself and a good number of the people who go to Steubenville and Christendom and the like. Put simply, I don't have 'practical' faith, for lack of a better word. Maybe 'trust in God,' is better. I believe in God and Jesus and the Resurrection, Heaven and Hell and salvation. I believe that God has made us for a purpose and generally has our best in mind.

But from there I get a bit Deistic. At the end of the day, it's what you do with your life that matters. I don't believe God has every day of our lives, yet alone every action, scripted out from here until eternity. I don't even believe that God will guarantee your life will be as it ought to be: people fail. People are miserable. It happens.

What I really don't like about the above, "you get depressed because you aren't doung God's Will," it that t leads itself so easily to being over-scrupulous about things. How can you know God's Will? Can can you be sure you're doing it? If you're depressed, but you've been doing everything 'right,' then what?

I do believe in God, and that we have a purpose, and I'm even pretty sure that he does take a hand in things now and again -- I don't think he's just watching his clockwork reality wind down. But I also don't think we're meant to run like robots according to some divine script we aren't allowed to read. You get depressed because there are sad things you can't get over, or because stress is tearing at you, or because you're biologic chemistry is off. Life is ambiguous. The best you can do is to do the best you know. To be a good person and do what's right, as well as you can with what you have and know.

As for my lack of faith, which I do think is a failing in certain respects, we can discuss that another time.

[identity profile] tzohekiti.livejournal.com 2006-09-25 07:28 am (UTC)(link)
Dear shit that child needs to read "Why Good Things Happen To Good People"...

[identity profile] jackofallgeeks.livejournal.com 2006-09-25 01:08 pm (UTC)(link)
Lest you embarrass yourself or hurt someone's feelings, she can read this as easily as you can.

That book, though, sounds like something I might be interested in reading.

[identity profile] tzohekiti.livejournal.com 2006-09-25 02:57 pm (UTC)(link)
It just rubs me the wrong way when someone blames the fact that something goes wrong on god. Do you explain a small childs illness by saying that the child wasn't doing god's word?

[identity profile] jackofallgeeks.livejournal.com 2006-09-25 03:20 pm (UTC)(link)
Some people might, which as I noted in my reply to Jenny bugs me, too. I don't believe God is passive-aggressive.