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jackofallgeeks) wrote2005-02-20 01:25 am
jackofallgeeks) wrote2005-02-20 01:25 am
Manic-Depressive (minus the manic)
Today was alright, until about two hours ago.
I got cited for speeding, 48 in a 35 zone.
I'm going to fight it, but right now I just feel... tired.
I'm physically tired; I've been up since 3am, and I'm pushing 23 hours of wakefulness, 8 hours of which were driving, and easily 10 hours of which were spend standing.
I'm mentally tired. I just feel helpless against this sort of thing. I think it's unfair and undeserved, which is why i'm fighting it, but I don't really believe I can win, not right now, and that's... fatiguing.
I'm emotionally tired. I'm just lonely. And I've been lonely. And I foresee myself being lonely. And I just wish i had a Someone, to sooth me, and offer support, and...
Anyways, I'm going to bed. I'll hate myself in the morning, and this is going to plague me for the next month, even if I win someone and it never affects me afterwards.
I just want to forget the whole world exists right now.
I want to cry.
I got cited for speeding, 48 in a 35 zone.
I'm going to fight it, but right now I just feel... tired.
I'm physically tired; I've been up since 3am, and I'm pushing 23 hours of wakefulness, 8 hours of which were driving, and easily 10 hours of which were spend standing.
I'm mentally tired. I just feel helpless against this sort of thing. I think it's unfair and undeserved, which is why i'm fighting it, but I don't really believe I can win, not right now, and that's... fatiguing.
I'm emotionally tired. I'm just lonely. And I've been lonely. And I foresee myself being lonely. And I just wish i had a Someone, to sooth me, and offer support, and...
Anyways, I'm going to bed. I'll hate myself in the morning, and this is going to plague me for the next month, even if I win someone and it never affects me afterwards.
I just want to forget the whole world exists right now.
I want to cry.