Cutain Call

[jackofallgeeks]

I want to take a break from our relationship. I say "relationship" because it isn't clear to me exactly how you stand with regard to me; I get the impression you aren't always completely sure yourself. Your fluctuating back and forth, trying to clarify your relationship with me, has become quite a mental burden for me. I do not need this stress.Talking about our relationship does not seem to help much. I think it would be best if we both just took a break from each other and got some fresh air. Clear the air. I am not angry with you, nor do I hate you, etc. You may email a response if you wish, but then I would ask you not to contact me, via email, phone. I need a break. Because I know you enjoy contra so much, I certainly don't want you to stay away on account of this. You have other friends here to enjoy. I hope you keep coming next semester and cultivate those friendships. Pray for me; I always pray for you.

No long speaches. I was afraid it might have come to this. I'm sorry if I upset you in anyway. Good luck with your papers, and finals. With any luck, I'll be in California next year. I hope to hear from you again, someday.

I ache. Emotionally, physically, mentally. Sometimes I should just keep my mouth shut. No one needs to deal with my bogeymen. Some things should just stay in my skull.

California's looking more welcoming. Hopefully I won't disappoint myself in that venture, too.

Maybe one day I'll be happy.
Maybe one day I won't be such a drama queen.

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"No one will ever feel truly happy, for there is always something to feel sad about. No one will ever feel truly sad, for there is always something to be happy about. To live is to test one's self on how much insanity one can stand. The world will always be this way. If one was to try and change the world, then it would only bring dispair and pain. To be happy is to be sad, and to be sad is to be happy."