I know that, sometimes on really bad days, I just need to see Beth. Even online. I just need to know she's there. I don't always say that - in fact, most of the time, I just shut up and deal because seeing her randomly isn't really an option. And granted, I do beat myself up and say it's selfish of me.

So I don't know. I know I like it when people need to see me, or be around me, or need a hug. Because if I don't feel a little bit needed, then I convince myself that I'm expendible and don't belong anywhere in anyone's life.