2006-10-30

jackofallgeeks: (Displeased)
2006-10-30 07:08 am

Now I DO feel sick...

I just called out of work.
I feel like a heel.

Really? There's no reason I couldn't go in today. I feel better, generally speaking, than I do most days when I get up for work. 'I'm sick' is a convenient excuse, but it makes me feel bad.

I've got this work ethic thing. I'm not really sure how it works, but it seems tied into my whole "be responsible, don't disappoint people," thing. I should be at work even if I don't have anything to do, because that's my responsibility.

But that's also the trouble. I don't have anything to do. For two weeks solid, and maybe even a little longer than that, I haven't had anything to do. I mean, reading up on documentation, or searching for Linux tools, but that's it. The sort of thing that 30 minutes in front of Google or Adobe clears up. And it's not like I'm not asking for more work, either; but on the one hand I'm not sure who to ask because there's at least 6 project managers, none of whom I'm really 'attached' to and any of whom could give me something. And at that, half of them are away on travel. The last time I asked my 'current' supervisor for something to do, he literally said, 'make something up.'

I appreciate the laid-back atmosphere, but when I'm at work I like to have something to keep me busy. Because nine hours of reading MSN news really crawls.

Anyways. I'm going to go and try to be productive. Since I know how to get to Trashmore now, I may go out that way and take a run. I could use some endorphins.
jackofallgeeks: (Tears)
2006-10-30 07:48 am

(no subject)

Having almost what I want makes me sad.